starting over

Well, it's back to the drawing board for me.  I need to get my act together, and follow through.  Here's where I was this morning:

results: week two

I haven't posted because I had the most embarrassing week for anyone trying to lose weight.  I think we ate out 4 or 5 times.  And I was not making good choices.  Hello french fries and pizza.  So, I told myself that I still needed to face the music and get on the scale.  Time to start over.  I was sure I gained back all four of those pounds I lost last week.  Imagine my surprise to see this:

Seriously.  I lost another 1.5 pounds?!?!  The scale actually bounced between 244.0 and 245.5.  I stepped on and off about ten times, letting the scale turn off each time.  I tried repositioning the scale thinking maybe it was sitting funny on the bathroom floor or something.  But it kept popping up in the 244-245.5 range, so in the spirit of fairness I went with the higher number.  Crazy.

I'm down 5.5 pounds already.  I'm getting back on track today.  No more screwing around.

results: week one

I lost 4 pounds!!!

I recognize that probably all of this is simply water weight, but 4 pounds is 4 pounds.  I have realistic goals for this journey.  If I can lose 1-2 pounds a week, by my birthday in April I'd be down anywhere from 15-30 pounds, putting me somewhere between 220-235.

When I got pregnant with G and B, I was 229 on my transfer day.  My weight today is right around where I was when I was admitted to the hospital for the last time before they were born.  I only gained around 20ish pounds even with a twin pregnancy.  I lost a bit early on, dropping down to 224 before starting to gain a bit.  I started off heavy and knew that I already had a high risk pregnancy, so I couldn't go crazy with the weight gain.  I ate.  Trust me, I ate.  But I think most of it went right to baby A and baby B.  I also had crazy, ridiculous heartburn/indigestion from about week 12 or 15 through delivery.  I couldn't eat more than a few bites before feeling full since the babies were rearranging my insides to a layout more suitable for themselves.

I'm sharing all of this just to put my weight into a bit more perspective.  I'd be very pleased to get down to my pre-baby weight  of 230 or so.  I've been heavy most of my life.  I'm a big girl - 5'10" and just solidly built.  I worked so hard to rock my wedding dress back in 2005, and I looked phenomenal at 180ish.  For so many people, even that number might be shockingly high, but I looked great.  My body is most comfortable settling somewhere around 220.  I haven't been below that in probably five years.  But there is nothing physically or genetically wrong with me; I absolutely can get lower than that if I put in the effort.

I'll be back later to write up a new goal to add to my water goal for this upcoming week.  For now, I'm celebrating being 4 pounds lighter!!!  =)

water, water everywhere

I have a tendency to overestimate my abilities.  I overextend myself.  A lot.

96 ounces of water is a lot of frickin water.  I should have gone for 64 this week, met that goal, and then raised the bar.  But not me... I'm special.

So far I've been able to drink somewhere between 64-96 every day.  I only hit the old 96er twice so far.    I do have to report that in just the 5 days of consuming at least the 64 ounces my face is remarkably clearer.  I still have lots of shadow marks from recent acne, but new pimples can be counted on one have with fingers to spare.  =)

note to self

I'm sick

Ugh, I have been as sick as a dog since Tuesday.  It's either a head cold or some kind of sinus thing going on.  The pressure in my face and head was beyond unbearable yesterday; I spent as much time as I could in bed while the little ones were napping.  I didn't get all of my water in yesterday, maybe around 64 ounces, but I did good on Tuesday and so far today.  One up side to being under the weather is that I've lost my appetite.  I really can't smell or taste anything.

I did hop on the scale this morning, and it popped up with 247.5.  Now, I know no one can lose three and a half pounds of fat in just two day.  It's all water weight.  And since I haven't been eating like I usually do, we'll see what next Tuesday's actual weigh in holds.

my starting point and week one goal

So, here's my starting point as of this morning:

It ain't pretty.  Neither are those unpolished toenails.

I know everything that I need to do to lose weight.  I've joined Weight Watchers more times than I can count.  I could probably run the meetings over there!  It's just a matter of actually doing what needs to be done.  In the past I've also tried Jenny Craig, Slim Fast, Alli pills, Metabolife pills, and a handful of other pills.  I've done unhealthy things to try to lose weight.

I'm going to take this journey one meal at a time.  Not even day by day - I'm guilty of letting one poor choice ruin an entire day, or one day of slip ups turns into a weekend extravaganza.  No more.  One meal at a time.  If I make a bad choice at lunch there's no reason why I can't save the rest of the day.  No need to throw in the towel entirely.

So, my first goal for this week is to drink more water.  96 ounces a day is my goal.  I have this huge 32 ounce cup, so over the course of the day I have to fill it up three times.

I'm also going to be more aware of what I'm putting into my mouth.  But first things first, baby steps, water.